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in the present, i feel the moments as they slip by one after the other as anyone.

but when i am in review i can not see the time line nor the length of distance traveled. everything is collapsed.

for example, driving from santa fe to nh was quite a distance which took several days. i say “several” days because without stopping to really consider and think about it i can not relate exactly how many days. as when i think of the road traveled i do not see the “length” of it.

in my mind and mind’s eye it collapses into one point of reference.

a dot.

this is only an issue when i am in front of people and required to spout dates, times, locations, etc. that’s just not going to happen with any guarantee of accuracy! to relate that type of data i need to prepare in advance by creating a document that details the points in a linear fashion.

in preparation i am precise.

when i was young it was challenge dealing with seeing so differently from what is considered the norm. teachers called me a dreamer… “she’s bright, intelligent, but such a dreamer.”

one extreme example was a winter ski afternoon with my two sons, then 9 and 11. the 9 year old had collided with another skier. while to the eye he seemed o.k., we knew to have his head checked, and so i found myself in an emergency room scenario. the admitting nurse was asking me simple questions like dates, birth dates, address, etc. i was having quite a time giving the information required (ad a little stress and everything is pronounced). i was quite embarrassed and at a loss when my 11 year old stepped up to the plate, recited all the information, and rescued me. my hero.

on the other hand… put me in a dialogue with a physicist, or dealing with transformational concepts, in a transpersonal situation navigating the psyche, the world of energy, and dimensional worlds, and i’m a fish in water. i really do understand when it is said that time is NOT linear.

so, i’ll never be an accountant, it would be too much work! but i’m really good at what i do

do  :)

the point of this story is to encourage you to use your inherent talents no matter how obscure or unconventional they seem to be — find them — apply them — and much to your surprise their utility and your joy will unfold.

bless…

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