*

*

how about reading a little magic story while sipping your tea? one of those that when finished you’re you’re really glad you did  :)

i

*

*

*

*

i leaned on the tree, julia kay

*

*

*

*

Tree of the Art of the Mind

*

*

–Tom Weidlinger

For several months I had been anticipating a meeting with Dorothy, my benefactress, in which I would present a funding proposal for a new project. Dorothy’s family foundation had been supporting my work for nine years. I’d made six films with her sole support-a wonderful circumstance, compared to my pre-benefactress decades when I spent as much time raising money for films as I did actually making them. Though I worked hard and did my best to be worthy of this munificence, I sometimes felt guilty about my good fortune. But not so guilty as to prevent me from presenting the proposal for film number seven.

Usually I talked with Alex, the foundation director who is my de facto boss, though he gives me complete freedom to make each film the way I want once the topic is approved. The last time I spoke with Dorothy was three years ago. In her mid-eighties, she was almost deaf and increasingly erratic. Alex told me she had changed. He suggested that I write a proposal for a multi-year project. Once approved, it would not depend on Dorothy’s continued possession of her mental faculties. This, most likely, would be the final plum.

I was extremely anxious about this meeting. I was not ready to accept, quite yet, that this good thing could come to an end. I worried that I was too soft to go back to the nail-biting uncertainty of being a freelance, independent filmmaker. And the competition is so very young these days. I was determined to get my idea for the new project across to Dorothy, despite her hearing difficulties. I brought my laptop to our meeting and typed on the screen in a very large letters: IT’S IMPORTANT THAT YOU BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND ME. WOULD IT HELP IF I TYPED WHAT I WAS SAYING?

Dorothy consented with a smile and a faint nod. I began typing and speaking very loudly and slowly at the same time, telling Dorothy about an award that one of our films had just won. She clapped her hands girlishly and said: “You are angels! I think you should all have halos!” Dorothy’s son chimed in and suggested he might find some at a local costume shop.

I continued typing, starting to describe my proposal for the new project. Suddenly Dorothy looked at me and asked, almost apologetically: “How much do you cost?” I was flustered. Was she asking me about the fee her foundation paid me or was she asking about the budget of the new project? I tried to make light of it, typing out that I was a bargain–the producer, director, writer and editor–all for one salary. “But how much do you cost?” she asked again.

I looked to Alex for guidance. He shrugged. So I launched into a rational for the cost of my proposed project. I didn’t get very far. Dorothy stopped me again. “Who are you?” she asked.
I typed:  “I’m the guy who’s been making your films for the past nine years–the films funded by your foundation.”

“But what do you do?” Dorothy asked.
“Well,” I said, “I’m the filmmaker. I actually make the films.”
“Really?” Dorothy’s expression was half-quizzical, half-skeptical.

Both Alex and Dorothy’s son did their best to confirm that I was who I said I was. Gradually they realized that Dorothy thought I was a transcriber, hired to record the meeting. Recently she been presented with an exorbitant bill for just such a transcriber and was none too pleased.

I was horrified to discover that the woman who had been responsible for making possible a good quarter of my life’s creative output no longer knew who I was. Yet at the same time I felt strangely calm, even amused. The absurdity of pegging my hopes for my future on her seemed suddenly hilarious–like something out of a surreal play.

I thought maybe I was in a state of shock. Imagine falling from a great height. You land. The wind is knocked out of you. You are feeling no pain, but you know that in a moment, when you try to move, pain will come flooding in. The only solution is to remain very still. This is what I did, literally and metaphorically. That night I sat in front of the TV until my wife finally told me to go to bed. In the morning I did not want to get out from under the covers. But eventually I did.

I thought I would find solace in nature. I picked up a sandwich at a deli and headed for the hills above the UC Berkeley campus where a network of fire roads and trails winds up Strawberry Canyon. Lately I had been preparing for a summer trek in the Sierras by taking my weighted backpack with me. There is a steep stretch of trail, about a half a mile in, that I sometimes walk up and down several times. That day a work crew was weed-whacking the slope adjacent to it. To get away from the racket I just kept walking, going much farther up the trail and into the hills than I usually do.

I tried to keep my mind empty. Not to worry about what life might be like after Dorothy. I wasn’t very successful.

After about an hour I got to a ridge top that I’d never been on before. It was hot. I headed down the ridge, looking for a shady spot to eat my sandwich. I saw a large tree, standing alone, about one hundred yards off the edge of the trail. It had a great view: a vast swath of the East Bay stretching away to San Francisco with the Golden Gate in the distance. Not a bad place to be homeless, I thought.

I ate my sandwich and then looked up at the tree. For the first time I noticed what appeared to be bits of white rubbish scattered around its trunk and throughout its branches. Dismayed by this blight, I decided to collect the trash and put it in my pack. When I moved closer to the tree, I discovered that it wasn’t trash, but bits of canvas crudely stretched over small rectangles of plywood, some as small as playing cards, some as large as a magazine.

As far as I could see there was nothing on the canvases except patches of black and grey mold. Whatever had once been painted on the surfaces had apparently been eradicated by sun, rain, and wind. Then I moved closer and picked up the smallest canvas, leaning against the base of the tree trunk. There was something on it after all. Typed in tiny and now faded Courier letters was this inscription:

Welcome to the art of the mind

What a pathetic excuse for conceptual art. Obviously the “artist” who left this here would never get noticed in the real world, so he or she had to come here and litter the landscape with it. I picked up another canvas, resting in the “y” between two branches. It read:

I was put together but then I fell apart

Hmm, I thought. I know the feeling. I went on to the next mildewed board, resting sideways against a branch. It said:

Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
Not everything will be ok.
But something will.

Yikes! Suddenly I was feeling a certain kinship, a connection with this anonymous artist. These words were speaking to me. I picked up the next canvas.

What are you doing with your freedom?

A shiver ran down my spine. What indeed? There were several more canvases that were blank except for the marks of the elements. But the last one I picked up read:

With Tao under heaven,
Stray horses fertilize the fields.
With Tao under heaven,
Warhorses are bred on the frontier.
There is no greater calamity
Than not knowing what is enough.
There is no greater fault
Than desire for success.
Therefore,
Knowing that enough is enough
Is always enough.

I walked away from the tree of the art of the mind feeling very different from when I sat under its shade to eat my sandwich. I no longer had to keep very still inside for fear that Fear itself would come rushing in.

Was it mere chance that just after one of the most dismaying things to happen to me in years, in which I felt my personal and creative sustenance to be gravely threatened, I should encounter a tree in the middle of nowhere that told me exactly what I needed to hear?

Was it mere coincidence that there happened to be weed-whackers on the slope that day? Was it mere coincidence that, therefore, I would walk up a section of trail I’d never been on before? And what about the person who made those canvases? What moved that anonymous figure to create them and place them in that tree?

A friend suggested that I Google “Tree-Art of the Mind-Berkeley.” In the age of the Internet everything is knowable, is it not? But the search turned up nothing. No name. No hint of the person who put those canvases in the tree. The oracle of the Web was silent. I found this comforting.

I am an agnostic. Even if I were a believer, I would think it the height of arrogance and hubris to assume that God orchestrated causality to teach me a lesson. And yet I am left with the feeling that there is nothing mere about this experience. I spoke about this with a wise old friend of mine who referred me to the work of Rabbi Abraham Heschel, who wrote:

God is not always silent, and man is not always
blind. In every man’s life there are moments when
there is a lifting of the veil at the horizon of the
known, opening a sight of the eternal…. But such
experiences are rare events. To some people they
are like shooting stars, passing and unremembered.
In others they kindle a light that is never quenched.

I don’t understand what happened. For me, at the core there is a mystery. If I clasp it too tightly I fear I will extinguish its light. Which is why I am telling you about it, writing it down. Maybe in doing so, I can give it air to breathe. The rabbi concludes:

The remembrance of that experience and the loyalty
to the response of that moment are the forces that
sustain our faith. In this sense, faith is faithfulness,
loyalty to an event, and loyalty to our response.

*

*

-Tom Weidlinger is a documentary filmmaker, living and working in the Bay Area. You can visit his Web site at www.moiraproductions.com

–by Tom Weidlinger; Jun 17, 2010

*

*

*

*

* this story and many other fascinating forward thinking articles are at jeff hutner’s blog “new paradigm digest”  *  http://newparadigmdigest.com/  *

*

*

*

*

*

Comments (0) Mar 02 2011

i woke this thursday having dreampt of merlin and a host of magical beings getting together for fun and to give a message to me. it was so real i was able to bring all of the feeling and most of the meaning to waking with me. i was reminded of how magical life and destinies are, of the wise and guiding presences, and of the adventure that lies ahead.

then i came on line and saw this below… looks like merlin to me ;)

:)

i

Magic Sky;   Thursday, 21 October 2010

Have you been watching the Moon this week? Shining brightly to the side of it is Jupiter. That’s a classic ‘conjunction’; two heavenly objects close together in the sky. It’s actually a triple conjunction. If you’re keen on astronomy… or you’ve got one of those new fangled sky-search applications on a smart phone… or you happen to have a decent telescope, you’ll find Uranus very near Jupiter. It’s too distant to see with the naked eye but that makes ‘the magician’ even more magical. This heavenly picture is exceptionally auspicious for all with hope and kindness in their hearts.

*

*

*

meet jon cainer a reknown astrologer and fellow mystic who has taught many — much.

read his work at:

http://www.cainer.com/

*
*
*
*
*
*
*

Comments (0) Oct 21 2010

*

*

*

can be funny things.

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

i downloaded my emails this afternoon and one held the top image with the following email containing the bottom one. they are two totally unrelated documents from two different senders — one male, one female — you guess.

*

i love that. synchronicity, polarity and perception can be funny things; the bhagwan plays with that too.

*

much love to you, osho.

*

ing

*

*

*

*

*

*

Comments (1) Jan 07 2010

*

jim, you must be picking up my feeling and thought of you on the ethers… i have been reading your book, “The Boy”, bit by bit like a good desert, right before bed and wanting to drag it out as long as possible because i didn’t want my beautiful bedtime story to end. but end it did, finally, friday night the evening before you wrote your a.m. comment: http://www.shamaniqueone.com/poetryandverse/is-pledge#comment-55 .

when i read the last words and shut the book i felt the emotions of sadness, deep appreciation, and strong desire to write a note, all at the same time. the thought i.e., in this case “i love what jim did and i want to write him a note to tell him”… combined with the emotion “gee i’m sad this ride is over, but so happy to have experienced it” are the ingredients in the manifestation, which, in this example was your response in the physical form of a note. thoughts in general and here specifically my thoughts, are the rocket ship and the emotions the fuel, so to speak, which together creates/created the mechanism that propelled the the note writing desire into form. i would have been the one to write that evening but didn’t because it was late and i was tired, so i went to bed saying to myself i’d make it a priority, monday, my first day back to the computer.

like a good friend, you picked up my transmission and, probably unknowingly, sent the note to me instead the next morning :)

how very nice.

this really wonderful story is about a boy who awakens to, and chooses to, nurture himself and his magic regardless of the many who do not endorse such a way of being. and when i say magic, i’m talking about the real deal here, not some contrived, don’t worry you’re safe because it’s not really going happen – since no one flies around on broomsticks kind of magic, but the real natural, dying to express itself, inherent in all – magic.

the boy, initially, by no choice and then by choice, cherishes and develops that part of himself while living within a society which, in general, doesn’t have a clue and doesn’t want to. there are the archetypical characters, antagonists, supporters, etc., human and animal alike, that are very likeable and dislikeable just as in any great myth.

jim weaves the manifestations into the story of this life so adeptly that it is totally relatable, just as i understand the creative process to work. i was happily reminded once again, that we have yet another brother in this author as a part of our great global tribe.

i am a magic person. i live, eat, drink and dance the magic of life. this story, like magic, fed me, hence the desert analogy. jim, i know you said the story of “the boy” will continue in sequel but getting the next book out tomorrow would just barely be enough to satisfy me. also, could you make it… hmmm… about 300 pages longer?

with great appreciation and luv,

ing  :)

just barely scratching the surface more on jim:

http://www.jamesstraussauthor.com

http://from-the-chateau-dif.blogspot.com

*

Comments (2) Jul 27 2009

last Sunday a.m., the 14th of June here in new hampshire… playing the aleister crowley tarot, i drew four cards one of which was the 4 of swords, otherwise known as “truce.”

a few hours later judy from santa fe sent me a comment located:

http://www.shamaniqueone.com/a-case-for-synchronicity/58/comment-page-1#comment-16

from her quote: “… I pulled a card for you today Miss Ing, and it’s the Four of Swords — the negotiating mind, the conflict/resolution mind, or the mediating mind. This is about Truce — an opportunity to move through conflictual issues and the states of complexity that need to be resolved. In order for truce to be experienced, one must: 1) show up; 2) pay attention; 3) tell the truth; and 4) not be attached to the outcome. [All of this is taken from Angeles Arrien's Tarot Handbook.]”

synchronicity strikes again!

Read More

Comments (3) Jun 22 2009

on wednesday the 10th at 10:30 a.m., in response to harriette’s comment below (about clearing the past – making it fun and moving on) i replied:  ” … at least liberating and exhilarating! it can be like a roller coaster ride; looks scary, you have your moments of extreme feeling, it’s over before you know it and you’re happy you went.”

while i was writing that reply an email was sent to me with these really wild roller coaster images:

synchronicity

i love when that happens…

you talk about something and it shows up.

i want to get really good with that…

Read More

Comments (4) Jun 13 2009